- Sat Mar 30, 2019 1:00:05 am
#6472
Hey boys! first of all congratulations for making this far. This game really fucked me up mentally and emotionally and I don't even know if I could play this all over again and to be honest I wanted to leave this everything behind when the season wraps up including the hosts and the cast.
So I don't really have a question for Sebastian and Donathan but I just have a lot to say and I don't need any explanation or an apology from the two of you.
Sebastian and Donathan, trusting the you both were probably my biggest mistake and dumbest move in this season. I trusted you guys so much that I didn't read our chats the way I read the others, if I did I would have known that you would betray me when you get the chance. I think I wrote it on my confessional that my allies would be my downfall lmao.
I'll start first with you Donathan, you little bitch. At day 2 at Jellal I felt bad for you when you told me that no one has talked to you yet, so I made sure from that point that you have me as an ally and friend and I was not just being polite. When "tHe CoOL kIdS" wants to vote you out I said "FUCKING NO!" because I like you. it's funny how the two almost first boots are now in the F3. I had suspicions that you are the first Tuareg but I just want to cling on the idea that it was actually Brendan because that idea would be more exciting but I already liked you that time so it didn't really matter to me. I promised you Final 5 because that's the only thing I could offer you because I already made a deal with someone else so I am happy that I fullfilled that promise by being voted out lmao. On my last night you made me feel that I could count on you, when you told me "I am still here for you" or something like that, I believed you because I thought we were close but nope I got voted out unanimously also making me feel stupid and betrayed that I trusted you.I wish you could have just told me the truth but hey! like you said you care about this game and you wanted to win so congrats on making the end. You have a great opening statement and winning those fucking immunity challenges to get to the end is great and I am proud of you but I still hate you. You stll have a lot to prove to earn a lot of votes though, good luck.
Sebastian, coming into this game I decided that I would just be myself and when I promised something I would try to keep it and I was unlucky that it was you Sebastian that I pledged my loyalty and after I got voted out I wish it was Kellyn who got to me first or Angela, I wished that I was on a starting tribe with Robb or Gabby intsead of you. I read that "THIS IS THE GAME THAT YOU WANTED TO PLAY" , cool! so all I can blame here is myself, for thinking that promises matter at this game, for bringing my guard down with you, for bringing this attitude in this game where you have to lie to others. I was blindly loyal to you and that is my own fault, I saved you numerous times from our first tribal council, to me saving your ass when you almost cost Ahmar 2.0 the Moroccan my Crazy challeng, by throwing that challenge so I could get rid of Brendan, I became the biggest shield at the merge for my allies (Angela, Robb and Don) and especially for you. Whenever I hear something about you and your stupid idol I try to shut it down immeadiately, this is why you don't have any votes until the night Robb almost got voted out because I wanted to show my loyalty to Robb who I really like. The whole time I thought you are being real, I was ready to give up everyone who is loyal to me for us to get to the end, In my mind I was playing two games, so we could reach the final 3 together because of that day 1 deal that we had. But now I am just the crazy dumbass you wrote on their confessionals that "mY nUmbEr onE ALLy is seeEeAbAasSS, I tRust Hiiiiiim the MoOoSsst!" it's embarassing actually and it makes me question everything on a personal level, and you probably didn't really care about me and your love for Seaweed alliance is probably fake and you being sad and crying about me being voted out is probably not real too. But thank you for teaching me that I have played this game so wrong from the start, I would be cold hearted the next time if i ever play again.
On my last night in the game If you voted with me on my last tribal council I would probably felt that you actually cared about me and I will go to Ponderosa ready to campaign you to win so hard but that didn't happen. On my way out of game I can't help but to feel that I was the biggest dumbass in this game and the alliance/relationship that I made with the both of you didn't really mean anything and it did really hurt my feelings. So I am just going to stop rambling now, but pretty much I would like you to know that you are not a villain, but more of a scumbag actually. I will probably vote for you even though it feels disgusting but fuck my feelings right? It's just a game anyway.
Davie, out of the 3 finalist you are probably my favorite to win, because first you didn't hurt my feelingsor piss me off and as far I know you didn't lie to me. I still think that claiming that immunity and sending us to tribal that resulted on Jedd being voted out was hilarious because you told me he spooked you lmao. I like you because you told me that you didn't trust me and never lied about who you are voting for and I respect that. At the swap you are one of the people I trust and someone I can rely on (eg. Jedd and Mike votes). I did really like you at Fenassa that's why I can't write your name when there is UTR purge because you saved me at that crazy tribal, so I wrote Pat instead of yours because I like you better than him which tanked my game lmao. I made a deal with you to work together at the swap tribe and I told you at the merge you could take me out if you wanted to and that's what you did and outlasted me I respect that. You played a quiet game, your moves are subtle and small which is enough to get you to the end. Some of the jury thinks of you as a joke, and that you are nothing, we are all mad that you missed the challenge and tribal council. So I am giving you the opportunity to prove to them that you are not a joke and that you are something in this game and that you deserve our vote.