[Danni Boatwright]

FINAL 5 BABY
We're in the endgame now. Are you prepared to do what it takes to win?

1-Who are you targeting next and why? Do you think you'll have the votes to make it happen?
2-Who do you think wants you in their final 3? Is this scenario good for you?
3-The jury has been very vocal at these past few tribals. Do you think you have the game/charm to get their votes?
4-How are you feeling about the game as a whole? Did you expect to make it this far? Has anything surprised you?

Good luck Donathan! Finish strong!

[Donathan]

i spend so much time thinking about what i can do to survive every vote and how i can set myself up to win....when my mind is at rest i'm thinking about moves i could make and the possible outcome of every scenario that results from those potential moves..... i'm even dreaming about this game



but.......i'm feeling kinda defeated and it sucks!!!!!!!!! you know last night i was thinking back to my application interview with poody and danni and i have a bad memory but i distinctly remember saying 2 things that stand out to me now at this point in the game.... the first is that i remember warning you guys that everything i say will be one giant run on sentence and thats still true!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the second is you know i've played in my share of ORGs this is probably like #10 maybe 11 or 12? so i know my style of game play and my strengths and weaknesses so i said "i have been nor will i ever be a goat" but we're at final 5 and it's looking more and more like i'm going to be a losing finalist which is just kinda soul crushing and discouraging because its so far from what i know i'm capable of and it sucks to feel like no matter how much work i put in to get myself this far or what moves i make from here until the end of the game the chances of being rewarded for it are looking very slim to none

this isn't me giving up bc thats not the type of bitch that i am i'll fight until the bitter end to give myself the best chance at snatching the crown at the end of this and if i want that to happen i gotta fix my attitude go into everything with my head held high and tell myself that i can do this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it's hard though because i do struggle with my self esteem and when logic and reason is pointing to the fact that i probably wont win it's hard to find the balance between keeping a positive attitude and not being delusional yknowwhatimean??????

[Donathan]

we're in the final 5 now and there's a reason to vote out everyone

robb has one 3 immunities in a row, he's found and played an idol, and from the outside a jury can easily look at his game and think wow he's been playing....plus if he sticks around he can pull off more immunity wins which means that its less likely for me to win which takes away a chance of me getting further in the game

gabby has been someone that people have talked about for a long time as a threat and she's smart she's likable and she has the perception of a good game player bc she has been good! plus she has davie as an automatic +1 vote so letting her go into final 4 with davie would be like just accepting that at the very least she can force a tie

sebastian got a public immunity idol at f13 and was able to keep it without being in any real trouble until f6 when he played it not bc he needed to but bc it would have gone to waste + he has an extra vote and juries love a good advantage bc it fits a good big move storyline... he and i have been working together closely since day 1 and every move he's made ive been right there making with him but he receives all the credit so anything that i can point to the at end for moves i made he can say too and the jury will oh wow i just discovered you can change color why havent i done this all game.....the jury will give him more points for those moves over me

davie.....well davie is probably the smallest threat but he was close with pat and chelsea told me once before that if anyone brings davie to the end she'll vote for him out of spite and i can see that maybe being something that could possibly happen??? but lets be real........

[Donathan]

im sure davie will probably be one of the people at the end and if i'm there too one of those 3 people who have a good case to win will be sitting there making their case to a jury.... i just gotta figure out which one of them gives me the best chance to maybe beat them?????

robbs game has taken a lot of hits in the late stages... i mean he did get his way with the alec vote and then got credit for the chelsea vote by using his idol to make sure there was no chance of anyone leaving except chelsea so i really dont think i should base his entire chances against a jury on the fact that we all think robb's game is messy and no one believes anything he says but it is a knock against him but if i was at the end with him i think i would have to spend more time knocking down robbs game than building up my own game for the jury and thats never a good look......idk i know i wouldnt vote for robb at the end but not everyone thinks like me so id be taking a big gamble on the fact that the jury would see his game the way i do and idk if thats the case but tbh he might win the next 2 immunity challenges and just completely take away any chance i have of making my own decision on any of this lmao

gabby has friends on the jury and a good reputation but..........actually idk im trying to think of reasons why gabby wouldnt win and im coming up short lol

sebastian is the person i would vote for in the end... the moves he made are the moves i made but with more pizazz so maybe im blinded by the fact that i see his game from a positive light when the jury doesn't seem to like him??? i can count on his arrogance at tribal councils to reflect poorly on him and ive been doing my best to be more vocal at tribal council and the opposite of him which is showcasing the sides of me that are thoughtful and funny and loving and being more careful and strategic with my answers rather than just saying "no one will vote me out" so ive been wanting my best bud seabass out for a little bit but maybe he's my best chance??? idk i think that hes has good relationships with people thru out this whole game to the point where idk if his arrogance and public unlikeability cancel out everything good about his game.... plus i know he's probably playing it up at this point so that he can use it as a selling point for himself to make him seem like less of a threat and a better person to bring to the end bc he can say "the jury hates me look at all the barf emojis bring me to the end!" and i can see thru it but maybe my only chance is using that against him???

[Donathan]

I'm able to see possible outcomes to most situations. No one can see the future. I can see options and trajectories. Time is like a river that splits into creeks or pools into lakes or careens down waterfalls. I have the map, and I steer the ship. There are millions of possibilities for the future, but it's up to me to choose which becomes reality.

[Donathan]

i've already changed my mind like 50 times since this morning about what i think is the best thing to do... i think having sebastian on the jury would be good for me and i think that sitting next to robb would be smarter bc we have played different games...... but no new thought negates the truth of the old ones so i'm really just going 1000 mph in my head..... the problem is that ive been sick for the last 5 days and its the longest ive gone without smoking weed since the game started so my chill levels are out of wack which is good in a way because its important for me to be hyper aware of every little thing in this game bc it all factors into my decision making but its also terrible bc im hyper aware of every little thing in this game and im going crazy lmao

[Donathan]

sebastian wants robb gone tonight because he's afraid that robb will win the final immunity challenge but i want gabby gone tonight bc i think that if me sebastian gabby and davie are the f4 its an automatic tie and if sebastian wins final immunity then im fucked bc it will mean an automatic 2 votes on me and id have to go to a tie breaker challenge so i hate that!!!!!

[Donathan]

also i cant believe i wrote that many confessionals in this episode and didnt address the fact that chelsea isnt here????? i know that her leaving made the most sense for my game last night and it needed to happen at some point but it felt so weird to wake up today and not see chelsea online where i can talk to her and i just want to say how much i love that bitch truly the star of the season

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[Donathan]

angelina and shii ann are #1 together idk if formatting counts?

[Donathan]

okay so i win yay and robb and davie arent here so sebastian isnt going to give me his extra vote bc he feels secure enough that he doesnt need it...... so its turning to emotional manipulation and making sebastian feel bad to hopefully get him to change his mind lmao